das gefühl, die welt 19 jahre lang zumindest teilweise falsch interpretiert zu haben. Sätze wie: 'oh, there wasn't just any guy good enough for her'...ich erinnere mich aber noch recht genau an meine selbstwahrnehmung und die sagte etwas ganz anderes.
Had previous experiences damaged me that much? They feel like kinda home and somehow that makes me sad - you never can have it all. I guess I was taking stuff too serious, well believing they were all better than me and thinking I wouldn't deserve it. How did this happen?
Maybe asking these questions is pointless and one must just try and work with the stuff thats available now. But it's still so difficult to understand it all.